looking back @ 2010

2010 this year...Totally a crap year....

Looking back this crap year....

What i have actually done?

NOTHING indeed...

But Singapore wise?

It was totally changed....

What do Singapore have now?

CASINO!

2 CASINOS some more

one is at Resort world Sentosa...

One is at Marina bay sands..

Although I have just hit the legalized year to enter casino

But $100 per entry wtf?

and it applies to permanent residents too >.>

They should let those people with S passes pay $100 per entry too =P

Singapore also have a big event also

which was the very first youth Olympics

well this event was a total waste of $$

I hate this crap year anyways

I have been very unlucky over that year.....

F*** that year and move on to 2011

It will be a better year for me

wow....

china bars english

wow....China barred English language into their countries

What is so great about Mandarin?

Although i speak Mandarin at home

as my mum speaks very lousy english...

and my grandparents dont even understand at all...

well...I suck at mandarin...

my english...not that great too

and I failed my O level english -_-

Even A friend of mine..

she speaks english often to her friends and her mum

but she failed her english O levels as well...

she went to retake another year again...

she still get a D7...

My 1st time is a F9 =(

because I have no idea of what is my sec 5 english teacher is teaching

the way she taught will make me even more confusing

If english was taught by my sec 4 english teacher...

I think I would have passed my O level english

second thing...during that year I was very very sick..

So i went to retake with her again...

and this time round she finally passed her english

and i got a D7 on my english...

Tomorrow is my fate on entering the course that i always wanted to go to...

I am going to take an english test at the institution

I hope that i will pass the english test =)

Full of hatred

I really hate my life so much right now. Parents keep controlling and as I hate people control me. When I ask them to do something on that day will they do it? No...but why my sis wishes can be fulfill? But not mine? I strongly feel that there is no one in my life concern about me at all..I am not selfish at all... All I want is to seek attention from them this is really simple...I hate myself really really hate myself right now...oh well I am just a lonely person that no one is concerning about...an average unpopular girl.life is so damn unfair

boring boring boring...

This has been like 2 weeks...

I never been that bored before...

Sigh I always wanted find a way to get out

oh well things never go well

My temper is just getting worst..

I start yelling at my family

Arguments with my family for no reason

But i still don't feel that i am relieved at all...

Maybe i need something to help me relax and control my temper

So I tried playing back WoW

But this game doesn't help me relax my mind at all

It's just making it worse...

Maybe clubbing or going some Buddhist chanting session

will make me feel calm

I really hate my life so much right now

It was like the same routine all the time...

Which is help out at the shop till 7pm

then went home to watch tv

have dinner...

later at night bathe and play...

and sleep at 3am....

So this time i start to envy my classmates and friends

well...my mum is a control freak

and him too...

but he is better than my mum...

well....I think i am going to have another boring weekend for another week again

sigh

Go out with them again once more -.-
but this time i need to buy my stuff and pressie for Zoe...
spent more than 200 I think...
sigh...broke again once more =.=

Tomorrow midnight he is coming back >.>
Great!He bought chocolates that is worth 110 AUD
OMG?must be chocolate gold bars?
I hope he doesn't buy perfume for his sis
as his sis gets to travel to Bali all the time for work...

This thurs and Friday would be a very busy day for me >.<
and yet his mum ask me to go his so call godfather's son wedding ceremony
and it happens on the day when Zoe celebrated her 21st birthday
WELL...I already promise Zoe to come for her birthday but not this one...
I dont even know them in person though....
and I also dont know all his cousins or whatever...
and his cousins especially his father side
their eyes are full of hatred against me
as if I will hurt them
At least Zoe she is one of my longest childhood friend....
Since she celebrated her 21st birthday party...
This is a total lifetime opportunity
Arghh...I think his mum will start to nag by saying
Friends important or this so call godfather important
Well SHE IS MY FRIEND AND THAT GUY IS A TOTAL STRANGER =/
and I mean it....

rotting

I guess rotting at home and going out with family is not a very great idea.
sigh...I spent 2 weeks just to rot and go out with my family -_-!
He is coming back to Singapore in less than a week =.=
and i start hating to go out with them!
They can be irritating at times...
especially my sister...
why i have such a sister -_-
she is 16..yet she behave like a 6 year old kid

I think i suffer from some syndrome whereby i cant express it out to others
But I can take care of myself independently if i have a proper life -_-
I am not like my sister...
oh well... I guess i am not prepared to go over Aussie yet
but i am sick of singapore and my family life -_- I want to live on my own though

Feeling giddy for the past few days argh...
I strongly think that my spec degree is increasing >.>

Now my hubby is at Aussie
and I can finally get rid of his mum for more than a month!!
wahaha.I think i need a very good rest and save some money
I might also need to top up some of my own stuff -_-
Need to buy birthday pressies too...
sigh mum has been asking me for money that I owed...
well as i see she is giving me like so little $$ per day
How to pay the debt!!?
Now she is docking my pay which means
I need to sign sign sign when i am shopping...
which make the debt even heavier...-___-

Buying list for the moment...
1)facial wash from soap n glory(wanted to try that)
2)body butter from soap n glory too
3)daily mask from Etude house
4)px and zoe's pressie
5)chocolates!(I think i can buy chocolates from my friend at a cheaper price lol)