被锁的滋味

那位可怜的少年
他并不是一个坏小孩
可是他被关在家里
要出门先得让父母知道
而且是限定的时间
好像在做监牢一样

那位少年已今年纪不小
可是还是被关在父母所设的监牢
真无奈啊
好想逃出这个监牢
可是他们设了机关
无论如何他是不会逃出父母的手掌心
这就是被锁的滋味

好像一只小鸟被锁在笼子
真是一个可怜的人啊
他一直想怎麽逃出去
就算逃也逃不到哪里去
真无奈


真可怜的一个人
他很崇拜周围的朋友们
可拥有所谓的自由
好想拥有所谓的自由
可是就算拥有了自由
人已老了
没有这个力量去享受
嗨。。。。
他就是一个这麽可怜的一个人

This song that i wrote simply describes me...
sigh i need some SPACE please...
I just want to lead my own LIFE
well...feeling so empty now

empty

Tried to take a picture
Of love
Didn't think I'd miss her
That much
I wanna fill this new frame
But it's empty

Tried to write a letter
In ink
It's been getting better
I think
I got a piece of paper
But it's empty
It's empty

Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're took apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty

And I even wonder
If we
Should be getting under
These sheets
We could lie in this bed
But it's empty
It's empty

Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're took apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty

Oh oh
Oh oh
Oooooh
Oh oh
Oh oh

Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're took apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty

(Maybe we're trying)
(Trying too hard)
(Maybe we're took apart)
We're empty
(Maybe the timing)
(Is beating our hearts)
We're empty

this song by the click five...
describes about the current mood i am now....
and feeling so empty now....
oh well...trying to live on my own life..
but thing seems turning upside down sigh....
I feel so sick of it...
wet dream almost everyday...
when i woke up...
then realised i am sleeping on my own single bed @_@
sigh....wanted to club but restricted by stupid mum....
and no $$ too bahh....
how i wish i have MY OWN LIFE never controlled by anyone!!!!!!!!!!
lucky he is not a control freak...
if not i sure gone crazy over him...
but my mum is...arghh...
hate being controlled...
wanted to find a job...
but..my mum straight away entered cpf for me
just not to let me go out and work...
the only good ting working with parents is
i no need to worry about my bills and my CC bill!!
the damn 20 bucks just for a few hours oh damn it...
i need full time to get another 20 bucks zzz
but my grandmother needs it though >.<
argh in need of cash...

善与恶

人总是有两个面孔
一面是善,一面是恶
人可以为家人露出善的一面
可是心却是多麽的邪恶的人
凡是都得忍受一切
一切不是你想像中的美好
就算讨厌也得忍受

这就是人的一生
无法改变的事实
诺能改变
我希望拥有我所需的一切
我想拥有
可是善与恶在和我作祟
我真无奈

我真地想拥有这一切
好想把这一切献给我
可是人就是那麽的自私
反而觉得悲哀
这就是人所拥有的面孔

爱一个人有这麽难吗
压力真的好大
就算他爱我
也要这麽的吃力吗
真的好辛苦

我的精神快要崩溃了
可是谁会在我身边陪着我
我只能默默的躲在一个角落
一直的哭泣
没人会去理会我
我真是一个寂寞的人

This is chinese song wrote by me meaning of how evil humans are...

Sick of it

no more talkings about his damn family again i am totally sick about it
Cant i just live on my own lifestyle i usually had!!!!!???
WTF...
I need more peaceful environment for myself
oh well...
NO MORE TALKINGSSSS FOR HIS DAMN FAMILY!!!
NO MORE TALKINGSSSS FOR HIS DAMN FAMILY!!!
NO MORE TALKINGSSSS FOR HIS DAMN FAMILY!!!
NO MORE TALKINGSSSS FOR HIS DAMN FAMILY!!!
NO MORE TALKINGSSSS FOR HIS DAMN FAMILY!!!
NO MORE TALKINGSSSS FOR HIS DAMN FAMILY!!!
NO MORE TALKINGSSSS FOR HIS DAMN FAMILY!!!
I am totally sick of it..
Whoever that wants to talk about them..
I am going to say sorry...
NO MORE TALKINGSSSS FOR HIS DAMN FAMILY!!!
What I only want is him....
WHAT for want his DAMN family.....

As what people say...
once a guy is married is belong to wifes not mother's anymore
but too bad...
most of the guys are like that...
always sided their kins instead OF wife
ARGH.....

IF SAY SOMEMORE I would like people to STFU
I need a life more than them

finally

Finally my hubby is off to thailand!
although it gets boring for me...
BUT finally i can stay at my place for the whole month!!!
without his mum @#!@##!ing
woohoo...i like it when i no need to get along with them
and thanks to his mum for transmitting and
I caught a damn flu yesterday when i sent him to the airport

why care?

I am saying out of my feelings over this blog..
so why care about saying bad about others?
blogging is for everybody to share their own thoughts over it..
some of it just cant keep it in heart....
must say it out then i will feel relieved...

not i red eyed people....
is the particular person has so many bad examples to write....
oh well....
people's stuff treat it like own stuff...
which i am pretty angry about...
thats why i said....
set too many bad examples may make people having comments about it...
people will never foresee ur good deeds

job or study?

Family business have been bad..
sigh sometimes the business cant even afford my pay...
Now i am like freaking poor
argh...in need of cash seriously...
my hubby's pay is totally not enough for me
as he has to pay all his damn stuffs...
thanks to him owing CC bills
if not i wont be so stress over that!
this is what will happen when a person is OVERSPENDING
damn it....

I have been thinking for freaking long....
The only solution is to look for a job
if i am still unable to find a damn job....
I think i am asking for a loan from my grandma to study diploma...