善与恶

人总是有两个面孔
一面是善,一面是恶
人可以为家人露出善的一面
可是心却是多麽的邪恶的人
凡是都得忍受一切
一切不是你想像中的美好
就算讨厌也得忍受

这就是人的一生
无法改变的事实
诺能改变
我希望拥有我所需的一切
我想拥有
可是善与恶在和我作祟
我真无奈

我真地想拥有这一切
好想把这一切献给我
可是人就是那麽的自私
反而觉得悲哀
这就是人所拥有的面孔

爱一个人有这麽难吗
压力真的好大
就算他爱我
也要这麽的吃力吗
真的好辛苦

我的精神快要崩溃了
可是谁会在我身边陪着我
我只能默默的躲在一个角落
一直的哭泣
没人会去理会我
我真是一个寂寞的人

This is chinese song wrote by me meaning of how evil humans are...

Sick of it

no more talkings about his damn family again i am totally sick about it
Cant i just live on my own lifestyle i usually had!!!!!???
WTF...
I need more peaceful environment for myself
oh well...
NO MORE TALKINGSSSS FOR HIS DAMN FAMILY!!!
NO MORE TALKINGSSSS FOR HIS DAMN FAMILY!!!
NO MORE TALKINGSSSS FOR HIS DAMN FAMILY!!!
NO MORE TALKINGSSSS FOR HIS DAMN FAMILY!!!
NO MORE TALKINGSSSS FOR HIS DAMN FAMILY!!!
NO MORE TALKINGSSSS FOR HIS DAMN FAMILY!!!
NO MORE TALKINGSSSS FOR HIS DAMN FAMILY!!!
I am totally sick of it..
Whoever that wants to talk about them..
I am going to say sorry...
NO MORE TALKINGSSSS FOR HIS DAMN FAMILY!!!
What I only want is him....
WHAT for want his DAMN family.....

As what people say...
once a guy is married is belong to wifes not mother's anymore
but too bad...
most of the guys are like that...
always sided their kins instead OF wife
ARGH.....

IF SAY SOMEMORE I would like people to STFU
I need a life more than them

finally

Finally my hubby is off to thailand!
although it gets boring for me...
BUT finally i can stay at my place for the whole month!!!
without his mum @#!@##!ing
woohoo...i like it when i no need to get along with them
and thanks to his mum for transmitting and
I caught a damn flu yesterday when i sent him to the airport

why care?

I am saying out of my feelings over this blog..
so why care about saying bad about others?
blogging is for everybody to share their own thoughts over it..
some of it just cant keep it in heart....
must say it out then i will feel relieved...

not i red eyed people....
is the particular person has so many bad examples to write....
oh well....
people's stuff treat it like own stuff...
which i am pretty angry about...
thats why i said....
set too many bad examples may make people having comments about it...
people will never foresee ur good deeds

job or study?

Family business have been bad..
sigh sometimes the business cant even afford my pay...
Now i am like freaking poor
argh...in need of cash seriously...
my hubby's pay is totally not enough for me
as he has to pay all his damn stuffs...
thanks to him owing CC bills
if not i wont be so stress over that!
this is what will happen when a person is OVERSPENDING
damn it....

I have been thinking for freaking long....
The only solution is to look for a job
if i am still unable to find a damn job....
I think i am asking for a loan from my grandma to study diploma...

shabu delights

The moment when i feel frustrated.
as long when i reach home...
the moment i saw my dog bark and ran towards the door...
i feel so much relieved..

Dinner wise....
Shabu Shabu became me and my hubby's addiction...
it makes me feel so comfy...
sake is the best alcoholic drink with shabu shabu...
way better than vodka



his expressions towards shabu shabu...

the meat itself makes me so damn bloated...

oh well these are my relief against life....
i really need to enjoy all the entertainment available now!
if not sigh....but thing is i am lacking of cash though bahhh

back from taiwan

have not been updating my blog for like 3 weeks?
oh well...it is not a really nice trip with me...

i guess that it is not a very nice idea going overseas with those older ones
Their concept is totally different from us...
from what they do/shop...
and i really start hating his side...
sigh...when i start thinking of them..
i feel so shameful to have such a family...
lucky my husband is not that kind of person!

their family is really good for nothing..
saying vulgarities is their companion....
never say those like asking them to die...
some more they smoke too...
oh well...make me cant even suffocate..
sigh...not i am saying bad things about them..
their actions and words...obviously make people have a bad impression of it...
simply like a gangster family...
sigh....they even meant that those vulgarities are not vulgar...
they even said is a kind of normal chatting
come on....
vulgar means vulgar is there any difference in it!?
To them they might not think they are scolding vulgarities
but to me and others...
they are obviously vulgarities...
what the people will think about a family that keeps scolding those vulgarities

I am sorry to say about his family...
But I really cannot take this kind of stress anymore...
saying out will make it more comfortable...
and this is my life....
i have no choice but to face it...
and i am avoiding them as far as possible...

!#@$%^@~!# argh....