looking back @ 2010

2010 this year...Totally a crap year....

Looking back this crap year....

What i have actually done?

NOTHING indeed...

But Singapore wise?

It was totally changed....

What do Singapore have now?

CASINO!

2 CASINOS some more

one is at Resort world Sentosa...

One is at Marina bay sands..

Although I have just hit the legalized year to enter casino

But $100 per entry wtf?

and it applies to permanent residents too >.>

They should let those people with S passes pay $100 per entry too =P

Singapore also have a big event also

which was the very first youth Olympics

well this event was a total waste of $$

I hate this crap year anyways

I have been very unlucky over that year.....

F*** that year and move on to 2011

It will be a better year for me

wow....

china bars english

wow....China barred English language into their countries

What is so great about Mandarin?

Although i speak Mandarin at home

as my mum speaks very lousy english...

and my grandparents dont even understand at all...

well...I suck at mandarin...

my english...not that great too

and I failed my O level english -_-

Even A friend of mine..

she speaks english often to her friends and her mum

but she failed her english O levels as well...

she went to retake another year again...

she still get a D7...

My 1st time is a F9 =(

because I have no idea of what is my sec 5 english teacher is teaching

the way she taught will make me even more confusing

If english was taught by my sec 4 english teacher...

I think I would have passed my O level english

second thing...during that year I was very very sick..

So i went to retake with her again...

and this time round she finally passed her english

and i got a D7 on my english...

Tomorrow is my fate on entering the course that i always wanted to go to...

I am going to take an english test at the institution

I hope that i will pass the english test =)

Full of hatred

I really hate my life so much right now. Parents keep controlling and as I hate people control me. When I ask them to do something on that day will they do it? No...but why my sis wishes can be fulfill? But not mine? I strongly feel that there is no one in my life concern about me at all..I am not selfish at all... All I want is to seek attention from them this is really simple...I hate myself really really hate myself right now...oh well I am just a lonely person that no one is concerning about...an average unpopular girl.life is so damn unfair

boring boring boring...

This has been like 2 weeks...

I never been that bored before...

Sigh I always wanted find a way to get out

oh well things never go well

My temper is just getting worst..

I start yelling at my family

Arguments with my family for no reason

But i still don't feel that i am relieved at all...

Maybe i need something to help me relax and control my temper

So I tried playing back WoW

But this game doesn't help me relax my mind at all

It's just making it worse...

Maybe clubbing or going some Buddhist chanting session

will make me feel calm

I really hate my life so much right now

It was like the same routine all the time...

Which is help out at the shop till 7pm

then went home to watch tv

have dinner...

later at night bathe and play...

and sleep at 3am....

So this time i start to envy my classmates and friends

well...my mum is a control freak

and him too...

but he is better than my mum...

well....I think i am going to have another boring weekend for another week again

sigh

Go out with them again once more -.-
but this time i need to buy my stuff and pressie for Zoe...
spent more than 200 I think...
sigh...broke again once more =.=

Tomorrow midnight he is coming back >.>
Great!He bought chocolates that is worth 110 AUD
OMG?must be chocolate gold bars?
I hope he doesn't buy perfume for his sis
as his sis gets to travel to Bali all the time for work...

This thurs and Friday would be a very busy day for me >.<
and yet his mum ask me to go his so call godfather's son wedding ceremony
and it happens on the day when Zoe celebrated her 21st birthday
WELL...I already promise Zoe to come for her birthday but not this one...
I dont even know them in person though....
and I also dont know all his cousins or whatever...
and his cousins especially his father side
their eyes are full of hatred against me
as if I will hurt them
At least Zoe she is one of my longest childhood friend....
Since she celebrated her 21st birthday party...
This is a total lifetime opportunity
Arghh...I think his mum will start to nag by saying
Friends important or this so call godfather important
Well SHE IS MY FRIEND AND THAT GUY IS A TOTAL STRANGER =/
and I mean it....

rotting

I guess rotting at home and going out with family is not a very great idea.
sigh...I spent 2 weeks just to rot and go out with my family -_-!
He is coming back to Singapore in less than a week =.=
and i start hating to go out with them!
They can be irritating at times...
especially my sister...
why i have such a sister -_-
she is 16..yet she behave like a 6 year old kid

I think i suffer from some syndrome whereby i cant express it out to others
But I can take care of myself independently if i have a proper life -_-
I am not like my sister...
oh well... I guess i am not prepared to go over Aussie yet
but i am sick of singapore and my family life -_- I want to live on my own though

Feeling giddy for the past few days argh...
I strongly think that my spec degree is increasing >.>

Now my hubby is at Aussie
and I can finally get rid of his mum for more than a month!!
wahaha.I think i need a very good rest and save some money
I might also need to top up some of my own stuff -_-
Need to buy birthday pressies too...
sigh mum has been asking me for money that I owed...
well as i see she is giving me like so little $$ per day
How to pay the debt!!?
Now she is docking my pay which means
I need to sign sign sign when i am shopping...
which make the debt even heavier...-___-

Buying list for the moment...
1)facial wash from soap n glory(wanted to try that)
2)body butter from soap n glory too
3)daily mask from Etude house
4)px and zoe's pressie
5)chocolates!(I think i can buy chocolates from my friend at a cheaper price lol)

worst haze ever

It has been so long that i ever seen haze that worst.When I was at my shop working...The weather turns so dark and hazy..I starting to have like breathing difficulties -_-.But this weather is so great that I can save $$ at home.

This hazy weather was caused by our neighboring country which is Indonesia..-_- Thanks to those damn cultivators that leaving from place to place and also cut and burn trees when they found a land that is good enough for them to laid on.Well they simply have no common sense at all.Not only it will affect the weather, animals lost their homes too.Eventually some of the animals will become a feast for them to celebrate their new claim land -___-.I am wondering if those lands they claimed is free or not.This is happening for like every 1-2 years.

Damn it....I simply hate this weather and stop burning trees -_- for the sake of the weather,the animals and us!!!

talking about singlish

Well,This is our local language though.Every country has its own invented language duh!Not only Singapore -_-.As I flip through the local Chinese newspaper today,I saw one report regarding about our language.A variety talk show from Taiwan actually mocking at our own invented language saying that singlish has been affected from the Indian culture.Well we do have Indians but the language they learn is not Indian!

Well, Singapore is one of the only country that accept multi-racial languages as their national language.However,Singaporeans invented their own language with the use of these multi-racial languages such as Chinese dialect,Malay,Tamil and English.Plus, Singaporean loves to type their status on fb and texts in short form.Which make it so weird.Some words particularly has its own meaning.I realised that there is a word that is so commonly used that most of them didn't know that that one is actually so call a dirty word that commonly used in sex and this word is "cum".This word actually means semen being dispersed from the body.Oh well I actually get to know this word when I was 18.

Saying about that Taiwanese host mocking over our language.The way they actually say is very humiliating!Well,they are simply bunch of people that doesn't care about how others feel.This is our own invented language not your own country!OOPS I should actually say most of the Taiwanese couldn't even speak english properly and yet they even learn American-English.WOW!!same as Japan!!!!They can mock at our Chinese language though but not our English!!!

It was really very hard for a Taiwanese to understand the English pronunciation.When I was in their Starbucks at ximending.It took me exactly 5 minutes to actually spell out my name when i was ordering. I was like OMG TIFFANY this name was named one of the world's most luxurious jewelry boutique.Yet people don't know how to pronounce or actually spell it!?Especially Asians living in Asia.This is how my name is pronounce Ti-ffa-ny. This is so damn easy. Thanks to my father for giving me this luxurious name.

But sadly my hubby just couldn't pronounce my name properly >.<.But surprise to hear that his mum actually pronounce it correctly!It only took her a week to actually figure it out.

well i should stop here

much harder!

I have been observing about my health and the only thing i am worry is my cardiac right now. I am really scared about cardiac arrest though...So i decided to pick up jogging to boost up my health.I think i never been exercising for like almost 3 years ever since i left school.

I think i need to buy some nutrients to boost up my health just like calcium and cardiac boost pills.oh well, I decided to also pick up a certificate first and then move on to diploma.Maybe i will try enroll the feb lessons for the professional certificate at MDIS.So that i can help my parents tender the shop in the afternoon and go for lessons at the evening.

Now i am thinking how to enroll their course =/.Maybe i shall head to their office on a Tuesday evening on December with my mum or with my hubby hmm...

On and off

Argh..When i can get a chance to sleep well,I just couldn't.I have been like sleeping for the pass 2 years during weekends at his house and after i never been to his house for months.I just couldn't sleep over there.That place is eerie and creepy to me at night and the mattress sucks.It was just like living in the hospital ward =/.

Yesterday it was like really on and offs to me. I couldn't even slept well at his place as the air conditioner was so damn cold and those kids in the kindergarten at his block downstairs was just so damn annoying in the morning.Seriously, I HATE KIDS!REALLY HATE them as they are very annoying and irritating...

When i reached home, I actually fall asleep once more and so on at night.bahh...Not because both of us is sick i think i would have drink again.But not really in the party mood right now.Sigh....I actually watched a movie called the true confession of a Hollywood starlet just now and this is really an educational movie to teach the girls how to treasure life and see what are the consequences after drinking too much alcohol in a night club every weekend.That movie was really meaningful.

well...I need to hop to town tomorrow again to restock my stuff -_-

shocking news

My mum of mine....is giving me a shocking news.Telling me on fb that he going to resign from army?Like as if i dont know.....for her is shocking but for me it is not really shocking anyway -.-.He already told me so damn many times already until i am so tired of it.But with my wonderful Iphone i can check everything that i wanted to check =.= no need mum to call me saying about something happened over fb wtf she is really a mood spoiler..

I was at Resort world sentosa when she actually call =.= sigh screw it.But wait till time seasoning...I might be either migrating to Aussie or UK.I also going to say goodbye to my Singapore finally...So sick of Singapore's life.It really make me feel that i want to migrate to UK!!!I simply love UK but not Aussie.Not because of my mum wanted to migrate to Sydney as there are relatives living over there.I would have migrate myself to UK with my husband!Beneficial wise UK is obviously a better choice for me.



How i wish there is a real lollipop tree exists >.<

This month i have been rotting at home.Sometimes went out with family for dinner though.This kind of lifestyle is so damn boring.Yesterday, wanted to buy something needed for my face yet the shop was closed for renovation -_- it was like I came all the way to my house and yet the shop was closed >.< plus he always pestering to go home asap. He even say he suffers from a sore throat.I think my condition is worse than him.I suffer from inner throat infection.But i am lucky that i didnt suffer from a fever this time.For the pass two times i have been having fever due to cold weather and overworking.

Overworking also cause me to have a very high fever while my throat and my head was so pain that i could barely talk.I even weep into tears....maybe cause of my sickness i lose my opportunity to work during weekends to increase my sales.That really affects too.If i fall sick on monday i think is okay for me but ended up having fever on a Friday >.<.This is how i got myself fired. This damn job sucks and the boss has high expectations -.- and for the worse company never even pay for the medical fee when their employees are sick.-_- Office work i think is so much better than this full time sales as the difference between this 2 kinds of jobs is stand and sit for the whole day with breaks from 30mins to an hour.

I think i really need a very good rest from it.

gucci again

oh i just bought a gucci key case for my hubby on the internet
the price is around the same as burberrys but the material
burberrys want is so damn hard...
I hope gucci key case suits him

arghh going to save money just to pay my mum =/

models?life?

After watching cycles of Americans Next Top Model,I always have a childhood dream of being a model.Although my body shape and looks is fine.But too bad I cant meet the requirements because..I am too short =(.Thanks to my parents that is short.I dont even meet the requirements for air stewardess too.

This is what I call...face the fact of my whole damn life...

I have been so damn vexed and even envy people that has take load of their whole damn freedom and also being rich as in parents are rich not them...This is what i feel against life...super unfair and unrealistic at all..Sometimes I even wanted to commit suicide just to gain my freedom.But that is a pretty stupid thing to do..So i choose to live with a damn boring lifestyle whereby i just eat and sleep...just like living in jail...or what...a person that is under probation..SIGH I WANTED MY WHOLE LIFE SO badly...

People might think what are the reasons for being treated like a person that is under probation. That is because most of the married ladies are living this kind of lifestyle and I am one of them.
But he is not the one that controls me.Even worse my MUM is controlling me and she always say she knows how I feel and what i am going to do.BUT she didnt even care about my feelings at all and how she understands me?Even people that is close to me didnt even understand how i actually feel.

She complained that she is in the 40s and yet her mum still controlling her.BUT she didnt even realised that she is doing the same thing to me as her mum did.Oh well...F*** my damn life not because of financial help...I would have leave her...I am not as stupid.It also pays to take over the business...But till i take over and thinking for that place...i see no future in it. So I also decided to do my business at somewhere else that has a bright future.

vexed off

Well the more my mum talk to me....

I feel so vexed!
Thanks to my headache and my diarrhea
I cant go out anymore -_-

I HATE my life really....
unless my mum stops controls me out from my damn life
then my life would be better =/

get away!

I need a get away right away!
whereby my parents especially my mum cant even reach me!
that really makes me feel like i am a BIRD =D

Freedom

I wish i was a bird
flying across the sky
Life can be full of freedom

Locked inside the cage
like animals in the zoo
seeking for freedom

I just wanna get my own freedom!
own freedom! own freedom!
OOOOOOWN freedom..

Oh please!I want to have my own freedom
Stop controlling me!
oh please stop controlling me!

When I was out
Phone starts to bomb
and the phone displays
Calling from MUM...

Oh mummy mummy mummy
Could you just shut your mouth up
and stop calling!!!!

I just need my own private space
I will reach home on time!
what is there to worry!!
OH damn it...

Screw my freedom..
Lets freed out from the house
I need my own freedom
OWN freedom
OWN SPACE

This song I wrote for myself just to express that I am not young anymore plus i am married she dont even need to control me anymore please. I want my own private space!Even I have my own house she will definitely seek refugee when there is something happen -_- OH WELL!Not i don't like my mum...She is just too overprotective against me..Well....Some people just need their own freedom...I tried to rebel but this method doesn't even work =( ALL I NEED is freedom...
My hubby doesn't even care about my whereabouts at all....Thing is I just need to reach home safe and sound..Sigh If he is like my mum....I am pretty sure this relationship will end very very soon as I hate people calling saying when are you going home?Its late already, why are you still outside?I am not under 18 >.>ARGHHHHHH oh please!Grant my freedom!So i can get to socialise people!

Thinking..

I was thinking what am i talented in?
Talking?NO way
Sports?NO!
Business?Not so sure!?
Arts?Not really great
Maths?well,I am careless enough to fail the paper
Inventing?well never think of that
Acting?not at all
Lying?well...I hate to lie but depends on condition
Doing Accounts? well numbers can only make me more confused
Sleeping?yes?
Dancing?well no
Socialising?my mum insists me on going to bars and club with friends =/How to socialise with people at my age group? boo...well i am a girl that is married and yet still no freedom from my parents... Do I really look like a married woman?Do I look like people at my age?Well the answer is NO sigh....my mum still treat me like a kid like scared i got raped or something...oh well..I am a grown up i know how to think...I am not a Dumbass

Oh well...Looks like I am a totally untalented person =(
Looking at people somehow they have their own talents
Sigh.....I am being such a jerk in this society

Being humiliated

Being humiliated is indeed very hurting....
if u are the ones being humiliated infront of those strangers how will u feel?
Today I just got humiliated from someone that is important to him...
This was so hurtful...
so what when I don't go his house often during weekends!?
Not because of being bored...
oh hey I hate it when there is someone I actually feel so very awkward...
I already sacrifice myself over there and I am really very tired about it...
what is so great about his house?
there is nothing better to do either..
So if I stayed my own house I still can help out my parents....
oh well I start hating their kins somehow...
they don't even know how to show concern about others and only care themselves instead...
since they are these kind of person then nevermind forget about it!
Should not wasted the damn money for them...
might as well spent it for other purposes...

Finally

Finally I get to watch a movie with my cousin and Jeff at Cineleisure last Tuesday night.This is also the day i didnt even have my dinner!I just bought some buns to munch and also bought some quick bites into the cinema.

So while I was on my way to ION orchard. I saw a bunch of young Olympians taking MRT!? I was thinking was that part of their educational tour? Maybe so. Since they already got those BUS to fetch them then why did they need to take MRT? I was totally stunned!

I alighted at Orchard not because of food.BUT the YOG mascot plushie!When i reach the Olympic centre.I only saw Lyo.Bahhh I always wanted a pair.But they left with Lyo =/Argh...

With not much time left, rush to cineleisure to collect my tickets which i booked online.We actually watched Step up 3D.The 3D version. The 3d effects so far..pretty normal dont have much effects at all.Overall, this movie was damn interesting.It was totally street dance, with the combination of break,popping and Hip Hop dance!The most interesting was the popping dance, they were so damn professional!

i am giving this movie 4.5 stars over five!

When i came back home and was about to use my comp. I was wondering why my comp hanged.
I keep trying to restart but there was no problem to the windows and thinking why my mouse point was not moving when i was using my mouse. Then i finally realised my mouse had SPOILT. After using it for 3 years..it finally spoil and have to spent another sum for another new mouse. So inorder to replace a new mouse,I used my laptop mouse as a backup. Although it was the same brand as my old mouse. BUT this mouse is pretty small.I need a big one to replace over my comp!

This Saturday however it will be my shopping spree with my hubby to help me find a better mouse!

Say cheese!

It has been weeks ever since i went out not with my parents though >.<. Argh...Then finally I went out for a Swiss dinner at Suntec last Sunday with him and we actually sat for nearly 90 mins over there. Maybe i was enjoying myself eating =P.This is also my 1st time eating cheese fondue!This cheese fondue was not quite bad.Maybe i will try out their chocolate fondue some other time.



Youth Olympic games officially started on the day we eat our dinner last Sunday.Its really hard to imagine those were around my sister's age O_O. Indeed some of them look like in their 20s.
Especially the Europeans...They were like so damn mature.BUT shockingly the Americans are not as mature, same goes to the Aussies. Asians were the ones that looks younger than their own age but not from China.Just like those Japanese they look like 13-14 years old and also one of the world's shortest Olympians.Singapore too but some of them are not as petite.Skin texture wise...
Korean boys had the worst skin texture.OMG! they are one of the country that has the most beauty products selling in Singapore yet their faces were like so bad? OMGGGG I think they dont have enough time to care about their damn face but to concentrate on their competition practices.

But compare to the adult Olympics, of course the adult one is better than the youth. The adult Olympics is really a scary one.Just like Michael Phelps, that guy is really a FISH. Swipe 7 golds for the USA in the PEK 2008 Olympic games.Setting 5 world records too...Another guy from the Track and field which is a Black guy called Ursian Bolt.Swipe 4 gold for JAM and setting 2 world records.Oh well...China may have the most golds..But I seldom seeing them setting world records same goes to the Russians.Omg those people were really born talent.Only running I can say everybody can run too but not those wheelchair bound.What we need is to just keep the pace and keep practice running.Swimming however needs to learn for years just to get into international games. I have learnt swimming though. But I actually stopped at the age of 11.Got myself a bronze too.I always wanted to learn some other sports but too bad my parents doesnt want to. =/

wee hours

Updating a blog during wee hours is seriously boring. Because most of them are sleeping probably dreaming of something. But to me I usually sleep at this hours after i got fired. Oh well, it has been a month not working at shopping centres. The good thing is i no need to stand for the freaking 10 hours outside and the bad thing is i can't earn money =(.

Listening to songs and watching comedy cartoons simply ease my mood and waste my damn time. Sigh. I have been watching all those FOX classic cartoons like the Simpsons and The Family Guy. These cartoons are so damn hilarious though. Simpsons is a total classic cartoon i ever seen when i was still a toddler. Family Guy just aired 11 years ago in the States. So i got to know Family Guy this title a few years back.

My life just screwed up like this after I agreed to ROM with him and also failing my O levels sucks. Actually I have 3 credits on my O levels though just that I failed my English and Maths..
the 2 important subjects =(. Well....Wanted to study diploma but spent it on my trip to japan and he haven't paid me back and since all his card is with me...I spent the money he owes me and he still owes me a few thousand bucks! Sigh....That will be enough for me to study a diploma =X.

ARGH...Money seems to be the most hurting object and also can be a weapon too.

omg finally banned!?

Wow 1st time hearing that a country is banning to wear Manchester united jersey!?
OMG...Now then the Malays banned from wearing..
lol they should banned years ago..
This clearly means that those prophets were quite laid back...
G_G then those Muslim Manchester united supporters can only wear their jerseys at home O_O
They have quite alot of Manchester united supporter....
oh well..I already hate it...
not only the players...
the logo itself simplifies as Devils....

What is so great about that team...
They are just lucky to win
They sucks big time...
man Chelsea FC is way better than them...
same goes to the red birds..

this is the news regarding about banning Manchester united Jerseys
Muslims warned against 'devilish' Man Utd Jersey

Pedicures

Did my pedicure yesterday
This two nail colours were pretty matching
Like more to French nail colours
But I use this colours to mix and match it
Even draw an nail art mix and matching with two colours
The picture shows my toe nails

Disasterous month

This month is definately a very disasterous month to me.
1st, I got fired by the damn boss
2ndly,Arguments about money again -.-
3rdly,keep falling sick after I got fired
As now I am having minor flu sigh
Lastly,things never turned to be what I expected. Oh well
My temper tend to get worse as I have nothing to vexed it out
The only good news in this month is
Spain won the world cup!hahaha!

Trying to post on my iPhone

Testing this blog post
for my iphone new application

leading a normal life

oh yeah I lead a normal life like I did now
not full time sales...
full time sales is seriously making me no life...
not only that....
this job is worst than being a online GAMER!
Thank god that i never worked anymore!

Went Udders with abby and jeff
which is one of the most enjoyable moment...
Went timbre for some drinks too =P
After that...
went home to prepare to watch the world cup final =D
This freaking final ends till like 5.30 am =.=
lucky i didnt work at that stupid job...
wahaha....that damn job sucks

So glad to heard that the Spanish WON the WC..
although torres dont really contribute...
but they did it!
As the previous WC post that i post
Saying that Spain will win the WC..
AND IT CAME true omg...
Cant believe in my eyes!
Supporting this team is RIGHT!
and this is going to be historical
1st time got to the final...
and...WON the world cup!

life goes on

Back to my same old life again...
and i got my freaking pay on tuesday...
and i already spent half of it...
LOL half of it just to pay credit card bills
this is how little my pay is..
work for so long hours for freaking 3 weeks..
and this is the result...
also makes me having backache problems...
argh....

Watching movies and shabu shabu delights again with my hubby
ahhaa...and finally i can enjoy it after 3 weeks of hell...
Next....I need to go do some clubbing =P
Just to vex and forget about this damn work again
Drinking is my current healing therapy
oh well...

AND FINALLY ITS the world cup finals!
and It's Spain 1st finals in the world cup!!
This time round the opponent is...
Netherlands...
This is the second time i watch this 2 teams playing...
as i watched it 4 years back then..
Both of them are indeed powerful...
just in 2006 the dutch won
as the match tells the whole country's experience
Germans for example..
They maybe good at defending....
but too bad
they lost to a head butt goal shot..
and most of the guys in the German team are around my age in average...
As for Spanish team they are indeed more experience then the young Germans
Looking forward to the match tomorrow
I hope Germans will win the match later...
although i dont support them but with their abilities
They are sure to win Uruguay

f.i.r.e......fire........FIRED

Ok finally i am out of this damn hell....
as Boss Fired me for being a slow poke...
oh come on...
Is this a real reason for firing me!?
and absolutely this is the real reason of firing me...
oh well should have ask people to bargain more
so that no profits for the damn boss!
WAHAHAHA
If he is mean to me...
Then I will be a coldblooded person...

Even more angry was....
I HAVENT EVEN GET PAID...
A few hundred bucks doesnt hurt your ass idiot!
BAHHHHHH
Once i get my pay...
I will spent all!!!
IF i still dont get the pay by Wednesday...
I will complain to Ministry of MANPOWER
and let them lose face =D

WC

Yesterday....the quarter final within Argentina and Germany...
people might think the Germans win beautifully
for me...they are not...
just that the latins are too careless to let them win the damn match
free kicks ftw...

People will also say Spain and Paraguay match boring...
but the Spanish did it to the semi finals
A match will never judge whether is boring or not...
the most boring match was....the draw matches
not these one at least David Villa scored 7 mins before the whole match ends
which made the fans happy about it...
I wonder how will the Spanish team work without him inside the game
I think they would have eliminated out long ago =X
From now onwards i will be Both Torres and Villa fan!=D
one from Barcelona fc and one from liverpool fc

ok now they faced each other again in the semi-finals...
same goes to the euro2008...=P

Joke of the day...
saw one movie thriller on tv...
The editor must have typed wrong...
saw this country call Kong Kong
I was wondering...
OMG
Since when Hong Kong change its country name?
lolol this is the joke of the day

there goes my job

Met different kinds of people...
got some girls just like to act like shes a pro...
WTF...
These are the girls which i hate most...
who thinks she is familiar with the trade...
yes she may be familiar but how much exp does she have?
4 years?come on...ONLY F 4 years?

Although my sis in law also have this kind of attitude
BUT at least she has more than 10 years of working expreience in her line
That 1 I really cannot say anything....
I cant hate people with more than 10 years of working experience

oh well there goes my off day..
and finally i get to work at century sq =P
NOT amk hub anymore...lol
Jurong point...is obviously the best place...
colleagues over there are obviously better and friendly lol

feel like quitting this damn job...but..
I want to work for another month see if i am suitable to work there or not...
and the pay too...

there goes my 2 days

Have not been touching my comp for the 2 days!
been working like crazy..
lols...

This year's world cup...there are full of jokes...
Which is the 2006 world cup champs IS ELIMINATED from the group matches!!!!
LOL!!knew it...they won by luck during 2006 Germany's world cup =P
they suck anyway...
same goes to France!!!lol
that is because...
France was just lucky to get a slot for world cup...
Their luck is only temporary
Now....England was eliminated from the top 16 with an unfair judge...=(
and Spain got to TOP 16 =D
So happy about it...

Last thing I want to say...
After working outside...
I realised some of the customers are really a*******
cheap still want to bargain...WTF
Singaporeans!!!better wake up...
better dont bargain and see the quality if u see the watches u want =P
Bargain = no earnings and DONT BUY IF u like to save $$

Been sick...
Having high fever during work last Friday..>.<
After i went back early...
I went to the doctors...
and after consulting the doctor
I rush home...change my clothes eat my dinner and went to sleep after some medication
Phone went flat after that..
Didnt see who called me
when i on my phone today my working place called me >.<
must be I am doing or forgetting again..
so silly minded me

never mind working with others is like that...
and today morning..
Wanted to go and work...
ended up i am having very bad headache and throat infection..
But for now...I am feeling much better...
I am pretty sure to get to work tomorrow

new stuffs,new beginning

My God sis is finally back from LAX!
was told to help me buy some VS clothes over there...
Not only that..
she give me a perfume sample from VS!
and a toy ring from there as well =D

7.5ml VS dream angels wish series

clothes i bought...but the blue one is totally out!!!

the toy ring lol!and it happened to be a lip gloss!!!

testing the clothes....1st top tested....


2nd top tested....

3rd top tested....


tube dress tested

last top tested....
all are pretty fit for me...
so i need to buy it....since i havent paid her
sigh need to wait my pay...>.<

This is the 4th day working at h2 hub...
ended up.....
after one nasi briyani...
My sore throat gets even worse >.<
been talking so much until i having sore throats...
this is the 1st time i have been talking so much in my life...
ok stop here....
I have to shop more VS clothes online =P

mistakes

There goes to my 3rd day working...
sigh been doing quite alot of mistakes...
and feeling so moody.
when i see spain losing to swiss zzz
argh..
no matter i support what team
the team sure lose -___-
I think i better dont support any team anymore!!!!
Like i am a jinx to them...

work or having fun?

Went to club yesterday night with abby and her bf...
omg this time I really enjoyed inside zirca...
But may not be as nice as phuture
Lucky to have overseas DJ performing their own music...
If not..the Music pretty sucky...
Tried to enter Rebel but full house =/

oh well after having fun....
I am going to work as a Full time sales associate @ amk hub
Finally I got this job....
Can waste more time by earning $$
instead of staying at home stoning...
or shopping...

world cup fever

Fifa world cup officially kicks off today...
1st match I dont even bother to watch it...
They are not the teams i SUPPORT!

The ones I supported their match is at next Wednesday @_@
which is Spain!!
Their Chances of getting the title is very high!!!
As they are crowned 1st in Europe sector in the world cup selection...
With 8 winning rounds at one shot...

Second team that i think they will get their title is....Brazil
Chances almost the same as Spain...
Argentina hmmm....i dont really think they can...
as they nearly got eliminated out from the world cup selection
for the Latin America sector
For England...hmmm maybe...
they have pretty solid players too

The rest of the teams...their players...
Dont think so..
ITALY is just lucky to get their world cup title last season
not as good as the teams i mentioned above...

But this year's world cup is really a loss...
As news reported...
Some countries World cup reporters got robbed
losing their most important equipment
such as cameras and voice recorder
There are even worst cases...
The locals attacked some reporters from China!
3 reporters got robbed at Wcup hotel
China world cup reporters got robbed and attacked in S.Africa
These were the news reporting about how they got robbed
Wow thats pretty scary...
Pity those reporters >.<

back to face the reality

Went for a job interview today...
It was pretty successful but just need to wait for good news....
and now....
He is coming back in like 10 hours time
oh well...need to face his damn family again...
back to face the reality....


A cup of dark chocolate marshmallow taste nice esp with this HUGMUG!
Miss those days shopping with abby and his bf >.>
although it just happen 2 weeks ago...
need to save more money for GSS >.<

Pity or envy?

I was walking down to the city
Saw many different kinds of people
But there is only 2 words to describe them
the poor and the riches

People tend to envy the riches
with unlimited cash
Hands full of luxury boutique paper bags
with a chauffeur waiting outside the taxi stand...
driving limo to fetch them to their own destination
dinner at posh restaurants.....
vacations at their own villa or 6 star hotels.....
planes owned by them...
and a big mansion waiting for them...

Who will pitied the poor ones
with old smelly ragged wears...
begging for money and food
Girls standing on the street
selling their body just for money...
People running for their lives....
owing debts from creditors
homeless people owing rent and bills

被锁的滋味

那位可怜的少年
他并不是一个坏小孩
可是他被关在家里
要出门先得让父母知道
而且是限定的时间
好像在做监牢一样

那位少年已今年纪不小
可是还是被关在父母所设的监牢
真无奈啊
好想逃出这个监牢
可是他们设了机关
无论如何他是不会逃出父母的手掌心
这就是被锁的滋味

好像一只小鸟被锁在笼子
真是一个可怜的人啊
他一直想怎麽逃出去
就算逃也逃不到哪里去
真无奈


真可怜的一个人
他很崇拜周围的朋友们
可拥有所谓的自由
好想拥有所谓的自由
可是就算拥有了自由
人已老了
没有这个力量去享受
嗨。。。。
他就是一个这麽可怜的一个人

This song that i wrote simply describes me...
sigh i need some SPACE please...
I just want to lead my own LIFE
well...feeling so empty now

empty

Tried to take a picture
Of love
Didn't think I'd miss her
That much
I wanna fill this new frame
But it's empty

Tried to write a letter
In ink
It's been getting better
I think
I got a piece of paper
But it's empty
It's empty

Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're took apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty

And I even wonder
If we
Should be getting under
These sheets
We could lie in this bed
But it's empty
It's empty

Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're took apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty

Oh oh
Oh oh
Oooooh
Oh oh
Oh oh

Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're took apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty

(Maybe we're trying)
(Trying too hard)
(Maybe we're took apart)
We're empty
(Maybe the timing)
(Is beating our hearts)
We're empty

this song by the click five...
describes about the current mood i am now....
and feeling so empty now....
oh well...trying to live on my own life..
but thing seems turning upside down sigh....
I feel so sick of it...
wet dream almost everyday...
when i woke up...
then realised i am sleeping on my own single bed @_@
sigh....wanted to club but restricted by stupid mum....
and no $$ too bahh....
how i wish i have MY OWN LIFE never controlled by anyone!!!!!!!!!!
lucky he is not a control freak...
if not i sure gone crazy over him...
but my mum is...arghh...
hate being controlled...
wanted to find a job...
but..my mum straight away entered cpf for me
just not to let me go out and work...
the only good ting working with parents is
i no need to worry about my bills and my CC bill!!
the damn 20 bucks just for a few hours oh damn it...
i need full time to get another 20 bucks zzz
but my grandmother needs it though >.<
argh in need of cash...

善与恶

人总是有两个面孔
一面是善,一面是恶
人可以为家人露出善的一面
可是心却是多麽的邪恶的人
凡是都得忍受一切
一切不是你想像中的美好
就算讨厌也得忍受

这就是人的一生
无法改变的事实
诺能改变
我希望拥有我所需的一切
我想拥有
可是善与恶在和我作祟
我真无奈

我真地想拥有这一切
好想把这一切献给我
可是人就是那麽的自私
反而觉得悲哀
这就是人所拥有的面孔

爱一个人有这麽难吗
压力真的好大
就算他爱我
也要这麽的吃力吗
真的好辛苦

我的精神快要崩溃了
可是谁会在我身边陪着我
我只能默默的躲在一个角落
一直的哭泣
没人会去理会我
我真是一个寂寞的人

This is chinese song wrote by me meaning of how evil humans are...

Sick of it

no more talkings about his damn family again i am totally sick about it
Cant i just live on my own lifestyle i usually had!!!!!???
WTF...
I need more peaceful environment for myself
oh well...
NO MORE TALKINGSSSS FOR HIS DAMN FAMILY!!!
NO MORE TALKINGSSSS FOR HIS DAMN FAMILY!!!
NO MORE TALKINGSSSS FOR HIS DAMN FAMILY!!!
NO MORE TALKINGSSSS FOR HIS DAMN FAMILY!!!
NO MORE TALKINGSSSS FOR HIS DAMN FAMILY!!!
NO MORE TALKINGSSSS FOR HIS DAMN FAMILY!!!
NO MORE TALKINGSSSS FOR HIS DAMN FAMILY!!!
I am totally sick of it..
Whoever that wants to talk about them..
I am going to say sorry...
NO MORE TALKINGSSSS FOR HIS DAMN FAMILY!!!
What I only want is him....
WHAT for want his DAMN family.....

As what people say...
once a guy is married is belong to wifes not mother's anymore
but too bad...
most of the guys are like that...
always sided their kins instead OF wife
ARGH.....

IF SAY SOMEMORE I would like people to STFU
I need a life more than them

finally

Finally my hubby is off to thailand!
although it gets boring for me...
BUT finally i can stay at my place for the whole month!!!
without his mum @#!@##!ing
woohoo...i like it when i no need to get along with them
and thanks to his mum for transmitting and
I caught a damn flu yesterday when i sent him to the airport

why care?

I am saying out of my feelings over this blog..
so why care about saying bad about others?
blogging is for everybody to share their own thoughts over it..
some of it just cant keep it in heart....
must say it out then i will feel relieved...

not i red eyed people....
is the particular person has so many bad examples to write....
oh well....
people's stuff treat it like own stuff...
which i am pretty angry about...
thats why i said....
set too many bad examples may make people having comments about it...
people will never foresee ur good deeds

job or study?

Family business have been bad..
sigh sometimes the business cant even afford my pay...
Now i am like freaking poor
argh...in need of cash seriously...
my hubby's pay is totally not enough for me
as he has to pay all his damn stuffs...
thanks to him owing CC bills
if not i wont be so stress over that!
this is what will happen when a person is OVERSPENDING
damn it....

I have been thinking for freaking long....
The only solution is to look for a job
if i am still unable to find a damn job....
I think i am asking for a loan from my grandma to study diploma...

shabu delights

The moment when i feel frustrated.
as long when i reach home...
the moment i saw my dog bark and ran towards the door...
i feel so much relieved..

Dinner wise....
Shabu Shabu became me and my hubby's addiction...
it makes me feel so comfy...
sake is the best alcoholic drink with shabu shabu...
way better than vodka



his expressions towards shabu shabu...

the meat itself makes me so damn bloated...

oh well these are my relief against life....
i really need to enjoy all the entertainment available now!
if not sigh....but thing is i am lacking of cash though bahhh

back from taiwan

have not been updating my blog for like 3 weeks?
oh well...it is not a really nice trip with me...

i guess that it is not a very nice idea going overseas with those older ones
Their concept is totally different from us...
from what they do/shop...
and i really start hating his side...
sigh...when i start thinking of them..
i feel so shameful to have such a family...
lucky my husband is not that kind of person!

their family is really good for nothing..
saying vulgarities is their companion....
never say those like asking them to die...
some more they smoke too...
oh well...make me cant even suffocate..
sigh...not i am saying bad things about them..
their actions and words...obviously make people have a bad impression of it...
simply like a gangster family...
sigh....they even meant that those vulgarities are not vulgar...
they even said is a kind of normal chatting
come on....
vulgar means vulgar is there any difference in it!?
To them they might not think they are scolding vulgarities
but to me and others...
they are obviously vulgarities...
what the people will think about a family that keeps scolding those vulgarities

I am sorry to say about his family...
But I really cannot take this kind of stress anymore...
saying out will make it more comfortable...
and this is my life....
i have no choice but to face it...
and i am avoiding them as far as possible...

!#@$%^@~!# argh....

Finally I am going taiwan in 3 days time

BUT!!!
This day is a pretty sucky day for me...
1st thing was his GOD damn sister again...
NOT I want to say her
but the way she behaves and talk...
IS MAKING PEOPLE have a pretty bad impression of it
maybe she treat diff to others...
BUT GOOD NEWS IS
SHE IS not going anymore!!!

I wonder this 1 is my mistake or what...
but thing is both side are wrong
1 is i never notice properly
today..got 1 damn malay family...
he stole one of the CASIO watch!@#@#$#$
I think he have been stealing things from my shop
NEXT TIME I SEE THIS IDIOTIC FAMILY!@!#@
i will never give chances!

happy birthday

Happy 21st birthday to me!

Unfairness

well..In my heart who will care for me?who is there for me?
No matter what happened...
Nobody will ever understand how i really feel
The only thing i can do is cried out and to make myself feel better
Oh well....
What really happened to me..
and why must it strike before i reach 21?

So envy those people that can make full use of their freedom...
I am just a bird that is locked inside the cage
and this key is soulbound
forever wont take out
and whatever i want to learn...
My parents are the 1st one to object me...
as for my sis...they treat it so different that
Both of us are just living under the same roof...
But 2 of us are just living in 2 different worlds

Unfairness is the best word to describe about life...

idiots!!!

Being idiotic makes people so f angry
Today there is one good fine example...
His sis send him and my mum a message
saying that she is not going anymore
Not only that....
she even say all those rubbish that doesn't link to the taiwan trip
the way she wrote spoils my whole damn day...
because i am having a upset stomach right now..
if not i will go drink as high!!!
and forget this damn thing

Even BETTER if she doesnt GO!
and now she is trying to make us to break ties with my family...
arghh.....

Finally finished

Finally I have watch finish bloody monday part 2!
Ending is like so puzzled...
It makes me think that there will be another series again!?
or maybe just tv special or movie!?
So keen to watch the movie if it is out!!

So nothing better to watch now >.<
Feeling sleepy now a days
with just a scratch totally wakes me up!!
the scar is like 15cm long!!!


lucky that the scar didn't bleed
although it is still painful now..
and this damn scar done by my damn dog
if this scar is being scratch by a stray cat
I would landed in the hospital doing stitches zzz

oh well stopped here

signs of qutting wow!!

saying good bye to wow...
my game skills force me to do so...
getting worse like a newbie
But that is a good sign too...

whatever expansion comes..i will never play anymore..
i will officially stop playing at apr 12th 2010
plus wow players sucks inside =P

Maybe i am a lousy talker....
Even an idiot can win me just through talking about facts ARGH...
such a failure in life sigh...

one last word i want to say in japanese

君立ち本とバカ！！バカバカ！

おわリ！

spree

Finally i get to go taiwan next month...
but thing is so many people following us =S
which is OMG?
from 3..
and now 6 more people joining us!?
lololol!!!
Tried to book a budget hotel..
BUT too bad that most are fully booked z.z
so i booked a cheapest 4 star hotel in taiwan


so i went town for a uni-qlo spree today
their long sleeves and turtle neck long sleeves are damn cheap!
in order to mix and match my dress i am going to wear to taiwan
bought several of them at a very low price...

bought myself the alice in the wonderland's tights >.>
and a free UJ catalog!
bought my mum-in-law a long sleeve shirt too..
I think this saturday i going to bring her and my mum to uni-qlo again!

I shall stop here for the time now

late late late

Maybe late for now...
But i just want to say...
見なさん！
お前ゎ気にしないて！！！
バカ！！
This is the 1st time i am typing it on Japanese...
It really fun typing in Japanese
and I didnt go through those language lessons though =P

I try typing my post in Japanese!

最近ね
カメラのきてまた！！！
日本カシオカメラのCM て三浦春馬だ！！
日本最新カシオカメラだよ
シンガポルのIT展買いる
さカメラのきてまた！！！
くレイしな！！！
個とカメラ我の二十一歳生日ポレセント
くれ視な，我のタンじピ近日とだ！


最新のカシオカメラだ！CEZ2000

ok i think i stop here...
My Japanese may not be as good as those that learn Japanese through schools
but i willing to try this language though..

bored

Sigh Boring moments going out with parents...
ARGHH....lucky thing was dinner no need me to pay for it
and no DRINKS allowed =<
Seriously they are the ones that doesn't know how to enjoy...
I must say not only them....
Older generations most of them they are...
What i only heard was dad's brags and mum's nags inside the car
arghh...i going to be crazy soon...

Oh well...life without money is like that though..
argh...
After my 21st birthday..i am going to taiwan
I am booking it this saturday though...

Last week celebrate my fatty's cousin birthday though...
its a pretty simple type of celebration

here....all his cousins heree
lols...

ok stop here...

wishlist

I think this is my 1st time setting a wish list >.>
Maybe i have the money to buy those stuffs last time
but for now...not really...

WTB!
1)Camera!!!although my phone is already good enough to have a 8 mpx camera

But the Japan's new Casio camera advertise by Miura haruma XD
Exilim Z2000 with 14.1 mpx!!!!!
The damn camera is so damn nice!
I wanted that camera!!!
Its one of the latest camera in Japan!!!!
Singapore is finally OUT!!!!
maybe this will be my birthday present for the year =P
Casio latest Camera ad
2)A burberry baggie!
bahhh I think this one is more expensive than the camera but sadly my bag broke by me =(
This 2 items is already enough for me to spent more than 1k already G_G
3)A trip to japan once again =P
4)Trip to Taiwan once more...but need to double confirm with my hubby
Lastly get traditional married asap!
Maybe i want to have more fun 1st before having a child =P
I dont want to be locked with a kid currently >.>
maybe with my personality and age
I not even prepare to be a mother yet

Task need to be done!
1)Get a private diploma after taking over my family business!!!
2)Know how to handle a business
3)Need to be a socialist!!>.<>.<
stop here for now

week gone

I have been going out for like 4 days in a week!
A damn big hole of $$ gone =(
I need to wait till his pay comes
so that i no need to listen to my mum's nags
i think the debt from 500 bucks rise up TO
1k!!!!ahhhh...i think we spent way too much!!!!
NOOOOOOO!!!Back to stay at home for a month
So I can save $$ to plan my taiwan trip...


For years i have been so many pubs!
This pub i went yesterday was fantastic!
got karaoke!!!
OMG!!!
Love it!!!
Eventually we open 1 bottle of martel

1 bottle finished within an hour >.>
although we opened the 2nd bottle
but we kept it so that we can drink it next time
lucky this bottle of martel is treated by friends
ahhha..

All of us were like drunkards!
My hubby ended up vomited when he reach home

oh well stopped here

RoaR!

Another new lunar year starts...
and the definition for this lunar new year is ROARING!
as the word came from what tiger shouts when they are angry!
Somehow I am turning 21 in about like 50+days
aahhh...turning 21 without any cert blah blah blah
only O lvl cert!?

I guess loads of my classmates has their own certificates...
oh well its just a piece of paper...
but this paper is important for getting a damn JOB
Lucky that i have a business to take over
After taking over the business i might going to upgrade myself
like learning watch mechanics/repairing/designing too
I doubt singapore have this type of schools...
i know there is only 1 watch school...
but well...learning a skill at overseas will be much better
like Japan or swiss
Swiss maybe too far...but they are so call the watch emperors
as most of the watches manufacture from there...
Japan maybe just at North east asia
BUT thing is language wise >.<
need to attend more Japan language lessons!!
Sigh...
there are watch schools at HK also
but I just dont like their environment
No wonder so many hongkies migrate to other country for some fresh air

Maybe i was born a slow learner!>.<
I may not be as smart...
But actually i am hardworking
but sadly...with one sickness that makess me fail my o lvls!
plus playing games during the important period
sigh..now regreted but i guess is too late
I retake again but i still fail...
but better grades though without any help
and only some guides from my tuition teacher
Should I actually retake O lvls again?
This time round going to a private school to study?
guess not...
Cuz i only need to retake 2 subjects
which is english and maths!
english may not as important...
but once maths fail..is cannot even go anywhere >.<
I was thinking for so damn long...
where should i go private or retake o lvls again!?
oh well...those courses i am not really interested..
now i am only interested in watch engineering
must be the influence of my father
other than that i also wanted to try logistics too
as my hubby is working in this line inside SAF
although maybe diff from SAF but i am willing to learn
sigh should have studied last year!
!#!$%^

oh well stop here for a while

damn

oh my..ssupposed to update my blog yesterday...
suddenly dont have the mood for it...
So I decided to update today...

Supposed to be a smooth shopping trip...
ended up while going home....
held up by a insurance company agent...
oh well...and I actually bought insurance for myself!?
omg....i may have friends/relatives working this line...
But i dont buy insurance...
I dont even buy it...
buy insurance for what!?
For me it is like just a liability...
sigh...money broke another damn big hole again >.<
Thats why i keep avoiding those kind of people zzzz
sigh....
I feel damn hard to reject people though
I feel weak in both physical and mentally
ARRGHHH...
need alcohol to ease my pain!@#!#@!

my plan to Japan during their spring is TOTALLY over!
I feel so damn sad now...
nevermind treat it as i am a idiot that is wasting resources
I dont really care much...
As long i lived
i will waste as much as i can
Now my hubby is like....
arghh...dont want to say anymore...
All GUYS are THE SAME
They are just a tool to make a woman happy!
and they treat woman like an item...
got it already they will start throw at one corner
oh well....i think i stop here

emotions

Have been so damn emotional these few days
and money is the main cause of it!

I just couldn't get rid of being a spendthrift
It was like money goes out easily
and flows in very slowly =(

Maybe this year's japan spring trip is OVER >.<
arghh.....wanted to see the cherry blossoms over there!!!
although china, Taiwan and South Korea also have..
But scenery wise..
Japan's scenery is the best...
and NO to china!
China scenery maybe nice..
BUT the food there is damn horrible...
Taiwan food maybe delicious..
but scenery wise...I dont think so...
Korea scenery and food maybe nice too
just that i dont like Korea
So the perfect scenery in North-east Asia to me
is still Japan no matter what
sigh.... time for me to save more $$

I really love japan this country so much..
that even though i went there for like 5 times...
I wont feel bored at all...
I think i can be a half Japanese!=P
But only thing is...I understand their language...
knows how to read their language...
BUT thing is i tend to get confused against their pronouncing
all though i didnt go through japanese language lessons or whatever...
I learn Japanese language through a book when i was 10
That time i cant even get the idea of learning the language...
Until i reach the age of 15
Then i start to slowly understand their language well
by watching their dramas
listen to their songs
watching their animes in their own languages
While my aunt go and learn basic japanese language lessons last time
She photocopied a sheet of japanese wordings to me...
So I started to write too...
From there onwards I start to understand Japanese...
But communicating with a Tokyoian is troublesome!
I just couldnt get the idea of what they speaking
even those work in the theme parks too..
The way they speak is way too fast-paced
is like having a vibrator placed inside the mouth!
However...
I also went japan that time with px and family and abby too!

ahhh.... feel like going Japan again >.<
and cant wait for Bloody Monday season2 episode 2!!
although is already aired in Japan but..i can only watch around 2-3days later >.<
as the drama needs to be subtitled!
sigh...Singaporeans boy and girls just chase those taiwan,hk and korean dramas...
oh well..I think the Japanese celebrities acted better then them
and age wise much younger than them!!!

I seldom see a hk/taiwan dramas that has a main actor of less than 20 years old...
Korea has quite alot of main actor that is below 20...
But Japan their drama has damn alot of actors that are below 20 >.>
and the guy i idolised is below the age of 20!
although he is turning 20 this year but still a main actor by the age of 17
even more funny thing one is...
He is exactly 1 year younger than me >.>
with just one day difference
He is none other than Miura Haruma!! XD
a damn super cute and handsome guy!
with incredible acting skills!

hmm I think i should just stop here!

saving!!!!

Its time for me to save for another overseas trip again!
THIS time round is Tokyo!
I just want to see their cherry blossom over there...
I been there for like 4 times...
BUT I never seen that before!...
SO since i am free..I should start saving money..
After gathering my new year goods
I will start to save money!
No more drinking at pubs and shopping!
Start to save money every single day
just to go Tokyo once again!
So by the time i booked the hotel...
I can go book air tickets to TOKYO!

After I check all the damn website for hotels and air tickets...
Hotels to me the price is reasonable
the only thing is the air tickets!
It's like really..DAMN expensive!
ARGH....Maybe the air tickets i need to book through travel agency!
travel agency however gives the best price...
Travelling expenses...need like 2.5k?
plus own expenses in tokyo need like SGD$700!!
WTFFFF...It is like his one month salary!!
ARGHHHHHHHHH......
IT IS TIME for me to save $$$$$$$



Watched Bloody Monday 2!!!
That show was really DAMN nice!!!
ブラッディ・マンデイII
This is the link for this drama!
But need to watch their part one 1st before watching part2...
It totally linked to the story...
ahh stop here for now...

I think i really going nuts soon...
Gaming itself wont solve the problem
argh..need to find something to do...

I think i will just enter a damn dramatic world...
It would make me feel even better after i watched those dramas
Japanese dramas are the ones that i like....
The rest....they are draggy and naggy...

The dramas that i watched....
mainly acted by oguri shun,mizushima hiro and lastly miruma haruma
I really like their shows...
plus they are pretty good looking guys
Although some dramas is old...
But i still watched through PPS

I even watched Koizora this movie...
It was aired about 2 years ago...
Yet i dont have the time to watch!
now then i have the time to watch...
Overall it was a very touching story...
But some people reviewed that this movie sucks
I was wondering....
Aren't girls willing to offer their body to their boyfriend now a days?
maybe the person never knows what happened now a days
Although i think is stupid...
But things are going differently is not what u think!

I even spent my time customising my phone's theme..
bahh it makes me so pissed when i was playing game..
One thing that I want people to know...
I am a very weird person
Since i am a weird person....
I can smile at u 5 mins ago...
BUT my face will turn black straight after your naggings...
So i dont wish to hear any naggings or whatever....
I just want to be in myself...
Oh well i think i shall stop here

regrets

Maybe i am being emotional or something...
I regretted about what i have done to my life...

I TOTALLY screwed my whole life...
Being an idiot....
I shouldn't have played online games....
I shouldn't get married so early...
I feel like a bird locking inside a cage....
I want to be a free bird!
But someone just don't let me to be a free bird....
WHICH IS MY MUM...
not my husband though....
AND HEY I AM A MARRIED GIRL...
YET STILL UNDER PARENTS CUSTODY!?
I feel more like a kid....

Maybe i am still look immature to them...
and YES i maybe immature....
WITH MY current age...
all i need is to play around...socialising...
BUT it turned out to be a hermit!
which i dont wish to face it...

Almost every thursdays are not my DAY...
argh...I HATE IT...
When i want to find someone to cheer me up....
yet he is not there....
I am so sad and it ended up having depressions...
When he is there
he never cheer me up at all...
GUYS are just typical....
After they got something they wanted
they just throw aside....
How i wish i am being loved like when we are still in a relationship...

I really envy people that is being loved like that...
How i wish too....
I just wanted someone that really cherish me....

After i watch a movie call koizora
I really envy that girl that is being loved by the guy....
How i wish he will do that to me....

life encounters

I think i am back to my current blogging mode
Although is going to 4am...
BUT i am still very awake...
Must be the nap just now...
I have slept for like nearly 4hrs
Oh well...

After i watch a japanese drama called 14 yr old mother...
I strongly think that being a underage mother is so shameful...
BUT to me if i feel so sorry for the both of them...
After having a one night stand...
and realised it 2 months later...
Oh well....those stuff are not as predicted...
If i do that 3 years ago...
I think my leaving certificate will be gone >.>
although i am 18 that time...
but thing is i am still schooling though
It was really... a very very sad story...
It almost make me cried
If this thing happened in real life
The guy will ended up in a juvenile jail...
while the girl will be sent to girls home too....
and the guy will never admit his fault and wont feel sorry about it...
As for this story..
It seems that the guy feel so sorry about that...
oh well....
its late i think i am off here

It late

I think it has been weeks i step onto this damn blog....
Maybe i should stop writing blogs for the moment....
need to take a rest though