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Things do screwed

Well....This year was a very bad year for me

Firstly, I applied for SDF..

but they just wont approve...

Then nevermind

how about the money I drawn out from my joint account?

spend it or let my parents pay the watch debt?

I can say both...zzz

Argh things keep screwing around me all the time this month...

Yesterday I transferred my paladin to another server

and guess what..

My account was locked

I was wondering why my account suddenly locked without any reason

and I saw an email from blizzard which says they suspect of me doing illegal transactions

and I was thinking did I do anything about it?

I didn't buy gold or give credit card details or even doing illegal stuff...

Argh....I was so pissed off right now

Now I need to get a reply from blizzard...

ARGH why must everything happened to me all in one TIME

Sigh...my depression is getting worst and now these things came all at a time!?

WHY this happen to me?

simply disaster!

Imagine you have parents that has facebook or something...

they will add people and simply stock on their kids and their kins

seriously...This is a total disaster

Talk to or add them on facebook is alright...

but tell them don't be a nosy stalker!

Actually....I am really sick of living in this kind of home

with families having high hopes on my sister

kins don't even want to help me....

they even commented me at the back too

no nice words on their mouths ever before!

When i saw my cousins crying or my sister is crying....

some of my kin will come and console them...

but me?They don't

They will just laugh at me.....

So i have no choice but to keep onto myself

That is why i start questioning myself

when i cry who will console me?

when I am having problems who will come and solve it?

When I needed help who will come and help me?

When I am sick who will take care of me?

my mum may be the one but that is not enough

I am also a married woman....

but sadly..my husband is not as supportive

His family?Not even supportive at all

Some even treat me like a stranger...

sigh....

I will never feel happy in my life....

want to vexed out..

but they all just don't let me vexed it out...

argh....I am suffering from a great depression seriously...

oh well hate those medicines

it will just make my memory not as good as last time

How I got my depression?

Easy....Not because of stress....I just need others to care about me

but nobody came and help me...I need serious love too...

things couldn't get any better

As years pass by with him...

Things get from worse to the worst...

Everyday... I need to worry him like mad...

did Buddhist chantings everyday..

just to wish him for the better and hold on to his current job

now what....

I just want to wish that he could pass his IPPT and thats it...

I just want him to train more on his runnings with me from now on...

but thing is he is not willing to...

worse thing that he still smokes...

sigh...I don't really know how to express it...

Do I still love him deep inside my heart?

In my heart seriously....

I feel so tired sometimes...

Why can't he just make me happy all the time

and I am the one that is always the planner of our date

well I don't want to reveal much about my feelings with him

as there are some nosy people around browsing...

boring year ever...

This chinese new year was deemed the most boring want ever!

Same goes to Valentines day...

sigh....So sad.....

shouldn't have spent so much $$ on clothes and bag -_-

well...I keep crying inside my heart now

sigh with the amount of $$ spent for chinese new year preparation

I could buy myself a Burberrys bowling bag =(

He is going to report sick for tomorrow

As he told me he is going to visit the clinic tomorrow

So I have no choice but to stay at home and stone once more

just led a normal life which is no life

sigh

Can't stand this 2 couple

I have seen so many animal torturer inside the video

locked inside the cage and burn the cat,use metal chain hit the dog etc...

This one is deem the worst one ever

This video I have actually watch this video before the news...

Youtube has removed the video due to disturbing scene...

Some animal torturing video only took about few minutes...

But this? 15 mins -.-

and his girlfriend never even take action at all....

and this video was taken by his girlfriend

Two good news for this 2 couple....

First....They are born in a corrupted country call Malaysia...

and Malaysian police only want $$$..If people gave them the $$

they will immediately catch them

Second-Malaysia is a Muslim country...Due to religious purposes...

they treat dogs like pigs...which is "dirty" to them

so they dont even want to bother about this abusing case...

Three bad news for the dog called Sushi

First- the dog was born in the wrong country

Second- the dog is so unlucky to have this kind of breeder

Thirdly-Even it dies....this dog will never die peacefully

I heard rumors that this dog is dead....

and they breed a shih tsu?

omg If they breed a shih tsu....

I think the abuser will get bitten before torturing

Shih tsu is not like other small breed dogs...

They are indeed very naughty and lazy ones

and cutting shih tsu's fur can be the dog hairstylist's nightmare

my place have breed a shih tsu so I know how naughty they are

argh.... I really can't tolerate this couple...

If they were born in my country..They would have been caught

and found themselves paying a fine of $10000 and spent 5-7 years in Jail...

as this was deemed a very serious case of animal abusing...

as this dog suffers from internal bleeding

If this dog dies....their punishment would be heavier

Well....This is what we call life...

life is unfair man....

breaking point

I think everybody has their own breaking point...

In many different ways, but most of them broke down because of money

Well money can be like a piece of paper to the riches

But not to the middle class or poor ones

I was wondering which category I am in?

Middle ones or poor ones?

I am not really sure though

the category I am in is totally stuck in the middle

Dont even have a proper job...

Plus school is starting in 3 months time

I really need to find a clerical job >.<

I dont mind about the salary

as long the pay reaches 1+k

I am really happy about it...

As clerical job I can spent my free time in the office studying

while earning some quick cash

Father friend's company is hiring though...

but so far still no news

if he never inform me by end of February

I need to find other clerical Jobs available >.<

I am so desperate for $$ right now

I also nearly strike 5k today -_-

oh well..thats luck...