emotions

Have been so damn emotional these few days
and money is the main cause of it!

I just couldn't get rid of being a spendthrift
It was like money goes out easily
and flows in very slowly =(

Maybe this year's japan spring trip is OVER >.<
arghh.....wanted to see the cherry blossoms over there!!!
although china, Taiwan and South Korea also have..
But scenery wise..
Japan's scenery is the best...
and NO to china!
China scenery maybe nice..
BUT the food there is damn horrible...
Taiwan food maybe delicious..
but scenery wise...I dont think so...
Korea scenery and food maybe nice too
just that i dont like Korea
So the perfect scenery in North-east Asia to me
is still Japan no matter what
sigh.... time for me to save more $$

I really love japan this country so much..
that even though i went there for like 5 times...
I wont feel bored at all...
I think i can be a half Japanese!=P
But only thing is...I understand their language...
knows how to read their language...
BUT thing is i tend to get confused against their pronouncing
all though i didnt go through japanese language lessons or whatever...
I learn Japanese language through a book when i was 10
That time i cant even get the idea of learning the language...
Until i reach the age of 15
Then i start to slowly understand their language well
by watching their dramas
listen to their songs
watching their animes in their own languages
While my aunt go and learn basic japanese language lessons last time
She photocopied a sheet of japanese wordings to me...
So I started to write too...
From there onwards I start to understand Japanese...
But communicating with a Tokyoian is troublesome!
I just couldnt get the idea of what they speaking
even those work in the theme parks too..
The way they speak is way too fast-paced
is like having a vibrator placed inside the mouth!
However...
I also went japan that time with px and family and abby too!

ahhh.... feel like going Japan again >.<
and cant wait for Bloody Monday season2 episode 2!!
although is already aired in Japan but..i can only watch around 2-3days later >.<
as the drama needs to be subtitled!
sigh...Singaporeans boy and girls just chase those taiwan,hk and korean dramas...
oh well..I think the Japanese celebrities acted better then them
and age wise much younger than them!!!

I seldom see a hk/taiwan dramas that has a main actor of less than 20 years old...
Korea has quite alot of main actor that is below 20...
But Japan their drama has damn alot of actors that are below 20 >.>
and the guy i idolised is below the age of 20!
although he is turning 20 this year but still a main actor by the age of 17
even more funny thing one is...
He is exactly 1 year younger than me >.>
with just one day difference
He is none other than Miura Haruma!! XD
a damn super cute and handsome guy!
with incredible acting skills!

hmm I think i should just stop here!

saving!!!!

Its time for me to save for another overseas trip again!
THIS time round is Tokyo!
I just want to see their cherry blossom over there...
I been there for like 4 times...
BUT I never seen that before!...
SO since i am free..I should start saving money..
After gathering my new year goods
I will start to save money!
No more drinking at pubs and shopping!
Start to save money every single day
just to go Tokyo once again!
So by the time i booked the hotel...
I can go book air tickets to TOKYO!

After I check all the damn website for hotels and air tickets...
Hotels to me the price is reasonable
the only thing is the air tickets!
It's like really..DAMN expensive!
ARGH....Maybe the air tickets i need to book through travel agency!
travel agency however gives the best price...
Travelling expenses...need like 2.5k?
plus own expenses in tokyo need like SGD$700!!
WTFFFF...It is like his one month salary!!
ARGHHHHHHHHH......
IT IS TIME for me to save $$$$$$$



Watched Bloody Monday 2!!!
That show was really DAMN nice!!!
ブラッディ・マンデイII
This is the link for this drama!
But need to watch their part one 1st before watching part2...
It totally linked to the story...
ahh stop here for now...

I think i really going nuts soon...
Gaming itself wont solve the problem
argh..need to find something to do...

I think i will just enter a damn dramatic world...
It would make me feel even better after i watched those dramas
Japanese dramas are the ones that i like....
The rest....they are draggy and naggy...

The dramas that i watched....
mainly acted by oguri shun,mizushima hiro and lastly miruma haruma
I really like their shows...
plus they are pretty good looking guys
Although some dramas is old...
But i still watched through PPS

I even watched Koizora this movie...
It was aired about 2 years ago...
Yet i dont have the time to watch!
now then i have the time to watch...
Overall it was a very touching story...
But some people reviewed that this movie sucks
I was wondering....
Aren't girls willing to offer their body to their boyfriend now a days?
maybe the person never knows what happened now a days
Although i think is stupid...
But things are going differently is not what u think!

I even spent my time customising my phone's theme..
bahh it makes me so pissed when i was playing game..
One thing that I want people to know...
I am a very weird person
Since i am a weird person....
I can smile at u 5 mins ago...
BUT my face will turn black straight after your naggings...
So i dont wish to hear any naggings or whatever....
I just want to be in myself...
Oh well i think i shall stop here

regrets

Maybe i am being emotional or something...
I regretted about what i have done to my life...

I TOTALLY screwed my whole life...
Being an idiot....
I shouldn't have played online games....
I shouldn't get married so early...
I feel like a bird locking inside a cage....
I want to be a free bird!
But someone just don't let me to be a free bird....
WHICH IS MY MUM...
not my husband though....
AND HEY I AM A MARRIED GIRL...
YET STILL UNDER PARENTS CUSTODY!?
I feel more like a kid....

Maybe i am still look immature to them...
and YES i maybe immature....
WITH MY current age...
all i need is to play around...socialising...
BUT it turned out to be a hermit!
which i dont wish to face it...

Almost every thursdays are not my DAY...
argh...I HATE IT...
When i want to find someone to cheer me up....
yet he is not there....
I am so sad and it ended up having depressions...
When he is there
he never cheer me up at all...
GUYS are just typical....
After they got something they wanted
they just throw aside....
How i wish i am being loved like when we are still in a relationship...

I really envy people that is being loved like that...
How i wish too....
I just wanted someone that really cherish me....

After i watch a movie call koizora
I really envy that girl that is being loved by the guy....
How i wish he will do that to me....

life encounters

I think i am back to my current blogging mode
Although is going to 4am...
BUT i am still very awake...
Must be the nap just now...
I have slept for like nearly 4hrs
Oh well...

After i watch a japanese drama called 14 yr old mother...
I strongly think that being a underage mother is so shameful...
BUT to me if i feel so sorry for the both of them...
After having a one night stand...
and realised it 2 months later...
Oh well....those stuff are not as predicted...
If i do that 3 years ago...
I think my leaving certificate will be gone >.>
although i am 18 that time...
but thing is i am still schooling though
It was really... a very very sad story...
It almost make me cried
If this thing happened in real life
The guy will ended up in a juvenile jail...
while the girl will be sent to girls home too....
and the guy will never admit his fault and wont feel sorry about it...
As for this story..
It seems that the guy feel so sorry about that...
oh well....
its late i think i am off here

It late

I think it has been weeks i step onto this damn blog....
Maybe i should stop writing blogs for the moment....
need to take a rest though