simply disaster!

Imagine you have parents that has facebook or something...

they will add people and simply stock on their kids and their kins

seriously...This is a total disaster

Talk to or add them on facebook is alright...

but tell them don't be a nosy stalker!

Actually....I am really sick of living in this kind of home

with families having high hopes on my sister

kins don't even want to help me....

they even commented me at the back too

no nice words on their mouths ever before!

When i saw my cousins crying or my sister is crying....

some of my kin will come and console them...

but me?They don't

They will just laugh at me.....

So i have no choice but to keep onto myself

That is why i start questioning myself

when i cry who will console me?

when I am having problems who will come and solve it?

When I needed help who will come and help me?

When I am sick who will take care of me?

my mum may be the one but that is not enough

I am also a married woman....

but sadly..my husband is not as supportive

His family?Not even supportive at all

Some even treat me like a stranger...

sigh....

I will never feel happy in my life....

want to vexed out..

but they all just don't let me vexed it out...

argh....I am suffering from a great depression seriously...

oh well hate those medicines

it will just make my memory not as good as last time

How I got my depression?

Easy....Not because of stress....I just need others to care about me

but nobody came and help me...I need serious love too...

things couldn't get any better

As years pass by with him...

Things get from worse to the worst...

Everyday... I need to worry him like mad...

did Buddhist chantings everyday..

just to wish him for the better and hold on to his current job

now what....

I just want to wish that he could pass his IPPT and thats it...

I just want him to train more on his runnings with me from now on...

but thing is he is not willing to...

worse thing that he still smokes...

sigh...I don't really know how to express it...

Do I still love him deep inside my heart?

In my heart seriously....

I feel so tired sometimes...

Why can't he just make me happy all the time

and I am the one that is always the planner of our date

well I don't want to reveal much about my feelings with him

as there are some nosy people around browsing...

boring year ever...

This chinese new year was deemed the most boring want ever!

Same goes to Valentines day...

sigh....So sad.....

shouldn't have spent so much $$ on clothes and bag -_-

well...I keep crying inside my heart now

sigh with the amount of $$ spent for chinese new year preparation

I could buy myself a Burberrys bowling bag =(

He is going to report sick for tomorrow

As he told me he is going to visit the clinic tomorrow

So I have no choice but to stay at home and stone once more

just led a normal life which is no life

sigh

Can't stand this 2 couple

I have seen so many animal torturer inside the video

locked inside the cage and burn the cat,use metal chain hit the dog etc...

This one is deem the worst one ever

This video I have actually watch this video before the news...

Youtube has removed the video due to disturbing scene...

Some animal torturing video only took about few minutes...

But this? 15 mins -.-

and his girlfriend never even take action at all....

and this video was taken by his girlfriend

Two good news for this 2 couple....

First....They are born in a corrupted country call Malaysia...

and Malaysian police only want $$$..If people gave them the $$

they will immediately catch them

Second-Malaysia is a Muslim country...Due to religious purposes...

they treat dogs like pigs...which is "dirty" to them

so they dont even want to bother about this abusing case...

Three bad news for the dog called Sushi

First- the dog was born in the wrong country

Second- the dog is so unlucky to have this kind of breeder

Thirdly-Even it dies....this dog will never die peacefully

I heard rumors that this dog is dead....

and they breed a shih tsu?

omg If they breed a shih tsu....

I think the abuser will get bitten before torturing

Shih tsu is not like other small breed dogs...

They are indeed very naughty and lazy ones

and cutting shih tsu's fur can be the dog hairstylist's nightmare

my place have breed a shih tsu so I know how naughty they are

argh.... I really can't tolerate this couple...

If they were born in my country..They would have been caught

and found themselves paying a fine of $10000 and spent 5-7 years in Jail...

as this was deemed a very serious case of animal abusing...

as this dog suffers from internal bleeding

If this dog dies....their punishment would be heavier

Well....This is what we call life...

life is unfair man....

breaking point

I think everybody has their own breaking point...

In many different ways, but most of them broke down because of money

Well money can be like a piece of paper to the riches

But not to the middle class or poor ones

I was wondering which category I am in?

Middle ones or poor ones?

I am not really sure though

the category I am in is totally stuck in the middle

Dont even have a proper job...

Plus school is starting in 3 months time

I really need to find a clerical job >.<

I dont mind about the salary

as long the pay reaches 1+k

I am really happy about it...

As clerical job I can spent my free time in the office studying

while earning some quick cash

Father friend's company is hiring though...

but so far still no news

if he never inform me by end of February

I need to find other clerical Jobs available >.<

I am so desperate for $$ right now

I also nearly strike 5k today -_-

oh well..thats luck...

younger as always/harder as it seems

Got myself a haircut once again

this time round my hair just touches shoulder length...

although i have spent 150 bucks for rebonding

but due to my length my hair still have a slight curl...

pretty standard though

photos courtesy of me =)

This hair cut has been done without rebonding

as my hair texture is like grass

2 days later, I decided to rebond my hair to make it smooth and soft

The most frustration thing was....

the bag i wanted....

came in 3 days later after I bought my limited edition mickey mouse bag

Today when i went there, both of the colours sold out...

I feel so relieved...that I no need to fork another 479 bucks =P

Went to do some shopping at ion orchard...

After rounding for an HOUR,

I still can't find a suitable jeans or shirt for him

So I ask yx to come for the rescue >.<

Lucky she help me pick the suitable set....

If not i will still be rounding around ion orchard...

After that headed Parco marina bay to buy SAKE =D

and some sake glass

when I am paying for that....

It cost me for a total of $66.60

I was like wow.... three 6s

What a devilish number....

ahahaha....This year I am getting quite alot red packet designs

Got red packets from Ion orchard,Parco, Food republic,Sony and UOB

I hope to get more of the designs =D

Watch Haruma Miura's new drama =D

This is his 1st main cast for Fuji television drama

I don't really know the Japanese title

In japanese is

kimi ga oshie te kureta

but after translating the title is...

Treasure from the heart

He is casting as a Chemistry/Biology Teacher inside the drama...

I feel so awkward acting as a teacher at his age....

well..he is just a year old younger than me

and act a teacher that is in his mid 20s!?

With his look he is pretty mature though...

So this cast suits him maybe?

ahh this one I finally found the picture...This is his new drama

He is just so cute and love his sexy voice...

spending like water

After stoning at home for so damn long

It's finally pay back time...

Bought a lot of stuffs today!

I think I spent at least $750 today

Met px at raffles city for lunch...

As I treat her for lunch... I already spent 40 bucks

After lunch went shopping at raffles city...

Bought myself a brown checkers short @ top shop

Which cost me $49 only!

After shopping at raffles city...

Went bugis for a second round of shopping again

as px is working in Bugis

before she went to work...

we went kinokuniya and bought this hairstylist's book

Those hairstyles are so nice that i wanted to change my hairstyle already >.<

Also, yx came and find us..

When px went to work we sat at starbucks and have a chat...

After having a chat....

Went to her working place

and i bought this 2

Baby facial cleanser and coffee face scrub

I used the coffee want...

that scrub was so great!

After buying these 2

me and yx headed to orchard

and its time to buy my samantha thavasa BAG!

I totally love their service....

This is the bag i bought!Limited edition Mickey bag!

this bag cost me $534!

I totally love this bag!

I simply love mickey mouse! =D

After buying this bag...

went to sephora to buy Abby's birthday pressie

Surprise?

Lastly headed to Etude house to buy my skincare!

.

Bought these 2 skincare products!

hehe I think thats what I bought during my shopping

I admit the rest I signed CC

cause after I spent it on my bag....

I left with no extra cash >.<

$240 CC bills for this month!!!bahh

oh well Chinese new year is approaching

so have to buy these stuffs though

sigh...I will never spent that much ever again >.<